What to do?

情绪又在作怪了...来到这里后，真的很容易陷入低潮。尤其是晚上的时候，当自己一个人的时候。人生就是充满了许许多多的矛盾。有时候真的很讨厌自己把一切都看得那么清楚那么理智。如果我不是那么理智那么冷静，或者说是无情？我可能就不用纠结于这些矛盾当中。如果我任性一点，那么我就可以肆无忌惮的表达还有放纵自己。我知道我不应该以自己心中的那把尺来衡量别人，每个人都有不同的个性和态度。如何与人相处？如何善待别人？与人的相处之道，这是你这辈子都要做的功课。可能是我太独立？可能是我太硬朗？所以有时候看不过眼别人太小孩子。自己一个人来到这里就该自己照顾好自己，就该独立，就该坚强。慢慢地长大后，就开始慢慢地看清了很多事情，也领悟了很多道理。也明白了沉默是金的真正意义。有些话真的不需要多说，尽了自己的本分就够了。有时候别人都不急，我自己又在急什么？别人自己都不在意，我又在意什么？别人自己都不管自己了，我还干嘛帮他管？有时候真心想帮助别人或关心的别人，可是其实别人未必想要你的援助。干嘛还要当个笨蛋？或许有人就是喜欢自己一个人，你又何必去扰乱呢？

“如果你太在意别人的看法，那么你的生活就像一条内裤，别人放什么屁你都得接着”

对呀~我何必做那条只会接屁的内裤？

快乐或不快乐，是自己的责任。

Stonehenge & Bath Trip

Went to Stonehenge & Bath which organized by Travel Society of my university on 26/10/2013. Sorry to say that the trip was not good, and I didn't really enjoy this trip. The schedule was really pack, and we did not have much time to enjoy ourselves during the trip. We departed on 7am and reached Stonehenge on 11.30am due to massive traffic jam. I thought the society would help us to settle our entrance tickets, but I realized we have to queue for very long and bought the tickets by our own. Somemore they only gave us 30mins to visit Stonehenge, which included the time you used to queue. I soon realized that the 15pounds we paid was only for our transportation fee. They brought us to a place, dumped us there, set a time, and back. The entrance fee for Stonehenge was 6.5pounds, and we only got 15mins -.- so once I went in, I took as many photos as I could because I want to make my ticket worth haha. After Stonehenge, we took another 1 hour++ to Bath, then they dumped us there too, and asked us to go around ourselves. We went to the famous place, Romans Bath, and the queue was very long too. The entrance fee was quite expensive (11pounds), and we queued for about 30mins to go in.

I took a lot of photos at Romans Bath too because once again I want to make my 11pounds worth haha! Romans Bath was a public bathing place on 2000 ++ years ago, and it was a natural hot spring. And, this is the place where Sam and Holiday had their first kiss in the Triumph in the Sky haha! After visited the Romans Bath, we got no time to visit other places anymore because we need to back on 4.30pm. Sigh, that's all for the trip. I wish to have more time for me to go around and take photos! Bath, perhaps next time I'll be coming again!

This week was the happiest week in UK because my parents came and I skipped class and I went to trip. But well, now back to reality to face my studies and report. And ya, winter is approaching and the sky is getting dark very early. 6pm and the sky is already dark like 8pm, and this makes me really emo and I don't know why. -.- I'm just becoming too emotional when I got here. Okayy no more emo, time for study! Be tough!

Parents are the best!

Oh yeah, parents came to visit me last Monday! I was really really excited and looking forward to see them. After my practical class, I went to rail station alone to wait for my parents. Never knew that I could be so happy and excited to see my parents until the moment I sat on the bench and waited their train to arrive. Finally 2pm, their train arrived and I met them! Mum gave me a big hug at the moment she saw me, while dad kept asking me questions like "how you get here? by bus or taxi?" "have you get use to UK?" "how was your class just now?" "what time is your class later?" hahaha i know they were just too excited to see me too. Then, I called a taxi and we went back to my house.

They brought a hand luggage and a 28 inches luggage, and surprisingly most of the things in the 28 inches luggage were all belong to me! They brought me everything I need like 3in1 milo & coffee, maggie hot cups, bak kut teh, chilies, spices and many more. Also, they brought me a microphone so that they can hear my clearly when we Skype next time, and brought me a power bank which I mentioned that my phone's battery always running out rapidly. Before they came to find me, they traveled within Europe with travel agency. So besides the things that brought Malaysia, they also bought me many famous items and food from Belgium, Switzerland, Amsterdam, Germany, Holland and etc etc. I also got few hoodies, scarfs, hats and some winter items because my mum worried those clothes I brought here are not warm enough for winter. I really feel so touch to see them bring me tons of things just to make sure I can live comfortably here.

They stayed here for 4days 3nights. I was only managed to bring them to my university, city centre and Beeston town because we didn't have much time. They like my university very much, and I can tell that they really feel so happy to send me here.

We went to city centre everyday because mum wanted to shopping and prepare some winter clothes and coats for me. I am a happy kid when they are around me. To be honest, I never been to any restaurants (except fast food) at city centre to have my breakfast/lunch/dinner because the prices normally are very expensive. These few days, finally I got to try western food here because of them hehehe. Those restaurants we went were all nice, in terms of environment and food. Besides eating nice food, i did lots of shopping with mum and finally I don't need to worry about winter!

I'm really glad to have them in these few days. With them, I don't need to worry anything because they always try their best to make sure I'm okay. Thank you for everything dad & mum, I will try my best to work on my studies and I'll take good care of myself here. I love you.♥

1 month

It has been a month since I reached UK, 10573km from home. I start to adapt myself here, and I could say that I'm actually adapt myself pretty well here. I wake up, I eat breakfast, I go to class, I daydream in class, I go home, I skype, I eat dinner, I shower, I stare at laptop, I sleep. These are my daily routines and I repeat most of the days. Somehow, I still can't believe that I am actually staying here at UK. But every morning I wake up the cold weather just slap me in the face and I have to accept the fact that I'm really now at UK. Every morning, I have to put on 2 layers of clothes and my coat, then check the weather forecast. No doubt, the weather forecast here is always accurate. If in Malaysia, who cares the weather forecast? The weather forecast is just bullshit. Every morning, I eat either cereals or cornflakes or bread or muffin for my breakfast. If in Malaysia, I have dozens of choices like Mcd breakfast, Subway breakfast, mamak, kopitiam, broga panmee, nasi lemak and blah blah blah... Every off day, I stay at home and online and skype. If in Malaysia, I go Mid Valley to eat Kim Gary, Snowflakes, Gongcha, Pasta Zanmai... or Pavilion to eat Suki-ya, Ichiban Boshi, Meet Fresh... Too many differences in my life now. Those new experiences might be good, but I miss the old ones the most. My relatives and friends often say, "wow time flies! you've been in UK for a month!" But for me, I feel like decades here. I try not to think about how long can I fly back to my home and my bed, otherwise I will just get myself into depression for the whole day.

And, relationships between people are the lessons that we spend our lifetime to learn. I know my weakness in relationships, the lack of passion. I'm not that kind of person who is always be so passionate when we be together, but I'm always try my best to give my hand, to support, to listen to problems, and to help whatever or whenever. Friends in Malaysia or UK, I don't always show my concerns does not mean that I'm not treating you as friend or I forget about you. I really appreciate all those people who become my friends.

Well, I try not to make my blog so emotional. I should record those happy experiences in UK because it might be the only chance in my life that I can stay overseas for 1 year. Yeah don't worry, I did adapt myself here very well. It's just that sometimes the loneliness and homesickness strike me at the night. I know I am lucky to be here, and I will appreciate every chances that are given to me. Be strong, girl. 

Cardiff Trip

Cardiff

是我来了英国不到一个月

第一次自己出门去找朋友的地方

去Cardiff的目的其实就是帮中学好友Cheng Sheng庆祝生日

他的生日是在10月7日 星期一

所以，一起在英国留学的好友

就打算在10月5日 星期六到Cardiff去找他

本来应该总共有5人一起去

我, Jason, Ali, Pin Huey, John

可是最后Ali要忙自己Society的活动

而Pin Huey临时放我们飞机

所以就只有我, Jason & John去啦

其中我和John都是才刚到英国不久

而Jason已经在英国念书一年多了

因为Nottingham没有Megabus的关系

所以我被逼要买火车票

Megabus都很便宜

来回大概就只是£20++

但是我买的火车票来回就用了£44

没关系!朋友比较重要 :)

由于我第一次搭火车出远门

所以其实我还蛮紧张的

我必须从家里搭巴士到巴士总站

再从巴士总站走大概10分钟的路程才会到火车站

因为害怕错过火车时间

8.05am的火车，我7am就出门搭火车了

谢谢Kar Er特地陪我到火车站

她说她不放心我一个人去火车站

其实我更不放心她陪了我过后要一个人回去

Anyway 谢谢你啦 :)

安全的上了火车，

我找到了自己的座位

就坐下来听歌

去Cardiff的路程要3个小时多

加上前晚去Goose Fair太晚回家不够睡

我就在火车上闭目休息休息

火车大概开了1个小时多

可怕的事情就发生了...

火车停在了Birmingham那一站

Birmingham的乘客上车后

火车还是没开

起初我是以为因为火车早到了Birmingham

所以我也不以为意

大概停了快30分钟了

突然广播宣告

“不好意思，这趟火车已经取消了。请各位乘客下车，到月台等另外一辆。”

我的心顿时沉了下来

开始很紧张很紧张

我拿了自己的东西下车，

一个人坐在月台不知所措

一直注意着听广播，也注意着月台的显示板

也注意之前同一辆火车的乘客

在等待的过程很紧张很煎熬

怎么我那么倒霉

第一次搭火车出远门就遇到这样的事情

等了大概40分钟

另一辆火车终于来了

可是...我们之前坐的那辆有3个包厢

这辆只有两个

好多人涌上前去挤着上车

大家都希望可以抢到座位

我也跟着挤上前

不是怕抢不到座位，而是怕上不了车

成功挤上了火车

座位都给人坐完了

我只好站着等

心里想着：惨了，我还有两个小时多才要到Cardiff,难道我就要这样站两个小时吗" T.T

火车上很多乘客都在抱怨

而我决定，以后都不再买这家公司的火车了！

火车过了两站，每一站都有人下车

可是我太小只

无法和其他乘客争位子

只好继续站着

直到有一站，有很多乘客下车了

我前面有两个大概跟我同龄的两姐妹想走前去找位子坐

怎知道他的爸爸说:"Girls, can you please let the lady first?"

然后转过来对着我笑，叫我走上前去坐那个位子

他应该是看我一个人，又背着大背包好像很可怜

所以就让我先坐

他们全家人都等下一站有人下车才找位子坐

真的好感动！谢谢你大好人 :)

由于我真的很累，

我一坐下后就睡着了

一张开眼睛后

我就到了Cardiff.

Cheng Sheng & Jason到火车站接了我后，

Cheng Sheng就带我去吃午餐

他带了我去他觉得很不错的餐厅 Wok to Walk

他知道我来到英国后应个都没有吃过炒面

所以就带我来这个餐厅

食物真的很不错！我终于有机会用筷子吃东西了 哈哈

吃过东西后，他就带我去参观他的大学：Cardiff University

他的大学就在City Centre里面

不像我们的是在outskirt

所以很方便，一走出门就有很多supermarket & restaurants

后来我们到了他住的地方，放下了我的行李

我们就走路去Sofea的宿舍

Sofea是中学好友Jia Wei的朋友

其实我们大家也不认识

不过由于她和Cheng Sheng一样念Cardiff University

所以我们就去找她一起出来玩咯！

就这样，我，Sofea, Cheng Sheng & Jason

就搭巴士去Cardiff Bay,

他们说来到Cardiff就要去Cardiff Bay,

所以我们就去啦！

风景很漂亮！

我们也拍了好多照片

照片都在我的facebook

所以我也不放上来啦！

晚上，Cheng Sheng就带我们回到City去吃晚餐

他带我们去一间Indo-Pakistan的餐厅

他哥哥和女友也跟我们一起

他的哥哥现在在念Master,之前也是在Cardiff念完degree.

所以对这里已经很熟悉了

这间餐厅也很不错！

我来了英国三个星期

第一次在外面的餐厅吃晚餐

吃得好饱好饱...

吃完了晚餐，

John也从London来到了

我们就先护送Sofea回自己的宿舍

再去Tesco买了点东西

然后就回Cheng Sheng家

因为我们前晚都睡眠不足，加上玩了一整天

(应该说走了一整天)

我们洗好澡就睡觉了

第二天，

Cheng Sheng带我们到他家附近的一家早餐餐厅吃早餐

这也是我一次在英国吃的当地早餐

很大份，也很好吃

吃过早餐后

我们去meet了Sofea

然后Cheng Sheng就带我们到Cardiff Castle

Jason & Sofea因为参观过了所以没有进去

就只有我, Cheng Sheng和John一起进去咯

景色好漂亮

我们三个人进去大概用了2个小时多才出来

而大多数的时间我们都在拍照 哈哈

在城堡的大门拍张大合照

这就是城堡

John & Cheng Sheng

耗了好久才勉强拍到这个角度，因为我不够高 =.=

逛完了城堡到了纪念品店，就开始玩了起来...

其实我们只是在拖延时间

因为Jason在外面买着蛋糕 哈哈

等到Jason的电话后

我们就出去找他

去到了一间咖啡厅

蛋糕已经点好蜡烛在等着主人了 哈哈

计划很成功

我们成功的庆祝了Cheng Sheng的生日

我们5个人

庆祝完后，继续在城市走走看看拍照

就要回去Cheng Sheng宿舍拿东西了

因为我要回去了

我的火车是6.45pm

大家陪我回去拿行李

再陪我去火车站

真的好不舍得回去

去到了那么远还可以跟中学好友一起玩的时光真的好开心

道别后，

我就一个人走到去月台等火车

显示板上是写着通往Nottingham的火车要在Platform 2等待

所以我就去了platform 2

由于时间还早，

我就找个位子坐下来等

等到差不多6.40pm了

这时候月台有一辆火车经过

很吵很吵

不偏不倚这个时候又有广播

而我隐隐约约听到了Nottingham这个字

但是由于火车真的太吵了

我听不清楚广播在说什么

广播后，

Platform 2的很多乘客突然走掉了，不见了

我又开始紧张了

就赶紧跟着走，到处去看看

怎么知道，让我看到了我的火车在另一个月台

我赶紧用跑的追上前

跟月台旁的工作人员确定是我的火车后

我才敢进去

无奈的是，显示板上还是写着我的火车是在Platform 2...

这让我更加的确定，我以后不会再买这家公司的火车了！

幸好我很警觉，不然我就回不了Nottingham了 T.T

虽然去和回的过程都出了点小状况

不过还是很开心可以见到朋友还有旅行

可惜时间太短，不然还可以去更多地方！

期待我们下次的见面！:)

P.S 爸爸妈妈要来探望我了!!! 好兴奋!!!

开学第一个星期的苦与乐

我的上一篇是开学的第一天
也是很emo的一篇
今天要写的就如同标题
第一个星期的苦与乐

我的上课时间说轻松又不是很轻松
说很忙其实又没有很忙
Monday 9am-11am
Tuesday 1pm-6pm
Thursday 9am-4pm
虽然说我星期三和五没有课
但是我有课的同时
其实时间还是蛮紧凑的

开学的第一个星期的上课天
真的很emo
上课环境真的和马来西亚好不一样
这个学期的科目都好无聊
教授讲课也好无聊
总而言之，上课就是好闷好无聊
以前上课虽然会闷
可是想到下课后可以一起讨论去那里吃东西就会好兴奋！
可是在这里，
间隔的休息时间只有1小时，
去cafeteria也只能买三文治或muffin (因为最便宜)
很想念鸡饭,broga板面,broga烧鱼,mamak,sushi,mcdonalds...

终于来到星期五，
我们决定去一年一度的Goose Fair.
Goose Fair其实是Nottingham一个跟大型的Fun Fair
在每一年10月的第一个星期举行
其实我到达目的地后有被吓到
因为我没有想到原来它的fun fair真的好大
看得我非常非常兴奋！

里面真的有好多好多游戏玩

每一个都很刺激

但是由于每个游戏都要收费

所以我们就选最想玩的

第一个玩的

就是很高很高的秋千

可能当天晚上我太兴奋

所以我一点害怕的感觉都没有

就只是想玩

玩这个秋千要£6

知道价钱后有点犹豫

但是想到马来西亚好像没有的玩

我就排队去买票了

摩天轮已经很高了，不过秋千还高过摩天轮

坐着秋千，感觉很爽

不过由于真的很高

上到去还真的有点怕

不过从高处望下

夜景真的好漂亮

不过也因为真的太高了

我们都在冷得发抖

虽然有点贵，可是真的很值得！

玩过秋千后，

我们都想再继续玩

看着秋千隔壁貌似海盗船的东西才£3

所以我们就决定上去玩

不好意思照片太蒙

其实它看起来真的不恐怖

所以我们都很兴奋的坐上去

刚开始的时候还觉得好好玩，

等它慢慢越来越高的时候

看着自己离开地面越来越远，

再看着自己从越来越高冲着下来的时候，

OH SHIT! 开始后悔了！

我觉得它比sunway lagoon 360º的海盗船还更恐怖...

下来后，我们大家都双脚发软头晕作呕

没有夸张...我第一次玩到想作呕

感觉呕吐物已经卡在我喉咙

好像一不小心张开口就会全部吐出来了... =.=

由于这一轮玩得太过分了

所以玩过这个就没有再玩了

回到家都已经晚上12点多了

还要收拾行李

因为第二天我要第一次自己一个人搭火车去Cardiff找Cheng Sheng

又是一段很长的故事...

不过今天很累了

或许明天再继续我的Cardiff trip吧！

还有，

爸爸妈妈还要两个星期就会来找我了！

真的好兴奋！:D